Have you ever wanted to run away from your current life?

That’s how I feel right now. I just want to go on vacation for a month or even a cruise and get away from all the mayhem and bullshit.

I just want to relax, take it easy, and leave all my worries behind. Things are getting pretty stressful. Time is ticking away and even that is stressful to think of.

Personal issues…we all have them. Mine are, let’s just say, suffocating me at the moment. Just feels like I can’t breathe and find myself.

I need to go to the ocean or even a lake. The water soothes me and lets me think clearly. Nothing else in the world will ever do the magic that it does to me.

Ya I know…crazy talk here, but it’s true. That’s my “sane” place to go. I need to go to it soon…very soon before I completely lose it.

I’m so tempted to buy a plane ticket, pack my stuff, and leave without telling anyone in my family until the actual departure time. Maybe then, they’ll all wake up and see the bigger picture.

Yes…I’m unemployed, as in…I don’t have a “real 9-5 job”. I do jobs here and there on the web, but it’s not the same. Either is the money for that matter.

I was able to spend ludicrous amounts of money when I was employed. I’d buy anything and everything I wanted without even thinking about it. Nowadays, I have to watch my spending and try to budget as much as I can. I can’t splurge on stuff like how I use to.

Jobs in my area suck. I want to move out of my city so badly…words can’t even express it. It’s too dull and boring here. I have been looking for jobs elsewhere in neighbouring cities and even random ones that are pretty far like jobs in Dallas.

But still…how can I move to another city without having any money to begin with? Ughh…life sucks sometimes…especially now.

The weather completely sucks around here. It is absolutely freezing even with the furnace on. I think I need some kind of heated blanket to keep me nice and warm.

I’m usually never cold either. Maybe the heat is not coming out of the vents properly in my room. I’m not sure what it is, but it’s way too cold here.

I can’t wait until all the nice sunny weather comes around. That way, I can relax and enjoy the summer breeze. I’m not even sure what I’ll be doing this summer. I have so many ambitions and thoughts about it, but I’m still not sure.

The future is a little difficult to think about at the moment. So many decisions and choices I have to go through before then. Stress…hate it.

Sometimes, I wish some dreams came true. Why? Because I’ve dreamed about owning my own home - huge one that had enough space for everything I wanted.

Plus, I’d have my own workout room which would give me the opportunity to get an elliptical, weights, and a few other equipment I wanted. Then I can also place my gazelle glider and my ab roller in that room too.

Then there’s my bedroom which is just too small for the furniture I have in it. So if I had a huge room plus walk in closet..I’d be happy.

Then again…this is just wishful thinking lol.

Wow…it’s 2009 already! Time is flying way too fast now.

I’ll be twenty four this coming fall and have been thinking about lots of changes I want to make. I’ve been reading about different insurances such as car, house, and even term life insurance quotes online. Then there’s things about careers, benefits, and different areas I’d like to move to.

I don’t know what 2009 has in store for me, but I do want to look towards the future. “Where do I see myself in 5 years?” type of thing.

I honestly don’t have the answer to that at the moment because I just don’t know. Guess I’ll have to take things one day at a time and try to figure out life somehow.

When I was back in high school, I thought I wanted to get into the marketing and owning your own business area of life. Even finding a franchise opportunity would of settled for me. I took courses in entrepreneurship, accounting, and other related courses.

Sadly, I never pursued that after I graduated. I went into ECE which was a random choice at the time. I enjoyed it though and even graduated from college as and Early Childhood Educator.

But…I didn’t pursue that as a career after graduation. I went into photography and I currently still am taking courses here and there.

My decisions on what I want to do keep changing. After all, don’t they say you go through seven major career changes over the course of a lifetime? Well, I might as well get all the diplomas now. LOL!

I’m so addicted to games. Both offline and on. Right now I’ve been playing World of Warcraft - which is ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!! Love that game now.

Then I have The Sims 2. Of course I can’t leave out the sims…I’ve been a fan for such a long time and have pretty much every single expansion pack & strategy guide for it. LOL…a little obsessive, I know.

Then I have PS2 which I play games such as Need For Speed, GTA, etc. But the next thing I want to get is playstation 3. There are sooooo many great games for PS3 that I want to try out.

Humm….well my birthday IS coming up, so maybe I might as for that. Hahahaha