Have you ever wanted to run away from your current life?

That’s how I feel right now. I just want to go on vacation for a month or even a cruise and get away from all the mayhem and bullshit.

I just want to relax, take it easy, and leave all my worries behind. Things are getting pretty stressful. Time is ticking away and even that is stressful to think of.

Personal issues…we all have them. Mine are, let’s just say, suffocating me at the moment. Just feels like I can’t breathe and find myself.

I need to go to the ocean or even a lake. The water soothes me and lets me think clearly. Nothing else in the world will ever do the magic that it does to me.

Ya I know…crazy talk here, but it’s true. That’s my “sane” place to go. I need to go to it soon…very soon before I completely lose it.

I’m so tempted to buy a plane ticket, pack my stuff, and leave without telling anyone in my family until the actual departure time. Maybe then, they’ll all wake up and see the bigger picture.

Yes…I’m unemployed, as in…I don’t have a “real 9-5 job”. I do jobs here and there on the web, but it’s not the same. Either is the money for that matter.

I was able to spend ludicrous amounts of money when I was employed. I’d buy anything and everything I wanted without even thinking about it. Nowadays, I have to watch my spending and try to budget as much as I can. I can’t splurge on stuff like how I use to.

Jobs in my area suck. I want to move out of my city so badly…words can’t even express it. It’s too dull and boring here. I have been looking for jobs elsewhere in neighbouring cities and even random ones that are pretty far like jobs in Dallas.

But still…how can I move to another city without having any money to begin with? Ughh…life sucks sometimes…especially now.

The weather completely sucks around here. It is absolutely freezing even with the furnace on. I think I need some kind of heated blanket to keep me nice and warm.

I’m usually never cold either. Maybe the heat is not coming out of the vents properly in my room. I’m not sure what it is, but it’s way too cold here.

I can’t wait until all the nice sunny weather comes around. That way, I can relax and enjoy the summer breeze. I’m not even sure what I’ll be doing this summer. I have so many ambitions and thoughts about it, but I’m still not sure.

The future is a little difficult to think about at the moment. So many decisions and choices I have to go through before then. Stress…hate it.